How stupid are you fucking bitches?

I HAVE A NEW XANGA!

Shit.

If you were smart enough, you'd fucking know.

Stupid asses!

Hey everyone.

It's been a while so I thought I'd update.

I got my haircut today.

It's pretty short.

I also put blonde highlights in it as well.

It looks really HAWT!

Well not much to say.

I will be back at school on Monday.

I hope to see all of my pals again.

Love Always,

Ashli

P.S.

I have a new xanga site it's

Ready_to_love_again....

so comment there.

Things havent really changed for me since yesterday. Im still in deep depression crying myself to sleep at night because I dont love myself. I've decided to eat, not to starve myself. I didnt eat for 3 days, but now im going to start. Im too young to die over some guy. Even if Im madly in love with him deeply. But nobody understands. Everyone things his not good for me, he's a bad guy, he aint nothing but a women-beater, la la la...I dont want to hear it! I know a different side of him, a side that's nobodys seen. When you have been with someone for so long, it's hard to let go of it!

On other note, I have a crush sorta, It's Erick Moses! He's kinda young for me, but he's really cute, at least Im attracted to him. But he only see's me as a friend, but he could see us being more than friends too. So I dont know about him yet. And I really dont know if I need to moving on. I really dont want to.

Who knows, will see what happens.

Love ya guys

Ashli

Things arent going so good for me.

The truth is Im in love with my ex boyfriend Zack .

The problem is he's moved on, he's done with me.

He wants to be "friends".

I know you guys dont understand where Im coming from.

You guys dont know what it's like to cry myself to sleep at night,

knowing that the guy I love doesnt love me back.

It hurts.

Im so deep in depression right now.

I cant eat, I cant sleep.

Im not eating nomore, Im going to starve myself to death. I hope it kills me. I know my friends think Im stupid, but what can I say I am.

I dont see any point in living, I just want to cut myself to death.

All I want is to be with him, nobody else.

He's all I've known for the past 5 years, and he's all I want to know.

Im going to try to get him back . Im not going to stop until I get what I want. And If I dont get him back. Im giving up on everthing,even my life.

I know this is sad and stupid, but it's what I feel.

I dont want anyone to feel sorry for me , I just needed to let everything out, and I just did on xanga.

Nothing more to say...

Ashli